Hello there!
When I put a pause on this newsletter more than a year ago, I felt my time spent creating a newsletter was not worth it. I looked at it as an experiment and the indicator I used is the number of subscribers. Looking back, I wasn’t looking at the bigger picture.
“My growth was too slow.” My ego said.
My focus was on something I can’t control. Instead of seeing that I was writing on a regular schedule, I looked at a vanity metric. It was a convenient excuse for me to stop this project and use my time somewhere else.
A few weeks back, I found myself going back to my past issues to recall old perspectives to help myself navigate through new experiences. I enjoyed reading them and realized I should have continued this not just for the seeming selfless reason to share my thoughts with a bigger audience. Maybe that’s a secondary reason or maybe not even.
I write for myself. And I have to continue to do so.
My past self was too scared to call myself a writer if I didn’t have a bigger audience. I was my own worst critic. Even compliments coming from readers felt like a heavy burden because this means that I should get better at this. I felt pressured to come up with an issue that was better than the last. It’s funny to think about it right now but I saw it as truth.
Sometimes your own truth imprisons you. Until you choose another truth that allows you to feel freedom.
The truth I’m choosing now is that I’m going back to writing this newsletter regularly. I have a ton of new thoughts and insights to share with the world. This newsletter is my playground!
And most importantly, I have a lot to share with my future self.⭐️